"In a Few Weeks..."

A year has passed and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything, yet nothing being the same. In one week we will reluctantly give our hugs, and fighting tears, say goodbye to people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left.

We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to the places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before.

We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even though it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don’t seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now no one at home will completely understand.

Who will call you first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking? Who will get pizza at three in the morning with you? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself again?

Then you start to realize just how much things have changed, and you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you know you live in, trying desperately to hold onto everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind.

In the matter of one day’s traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messaging, 9 AM classes, and the perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we lived in it for 19 years.

But it is different now.

We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the past year and whom we hold dearest in our hearts.

We’ve left our high school world to deal with the real world. We’ve had our hearts broken, we’ve fallen in love, we’ve helped our best friends overcome depression, stress and death, and we’ve stayed up all night just to be there for a friend in need.

There have been times when we’ve felt so helpless being so far away from home when we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.

In a few weeks from now we will leave.

We will take down our pictures and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

A few weeks from now we will arrive.

We will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us to laughter and tears over the year. We will unpack old memories and dreams that have been put away for the past year.

A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close. And somehow, in some way, we will find our place between these two completely different worlds.


In a few weeks...



Are you ready?
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My first year of college is gone!  I will never get it back.  :(  But, the truth is that I enjoyed it.  I had the best of time with my new friends.... I've been through so many new things and expirienced them as well.  I would never want to replace these times.... Just finals... and then i'm gone..... Wonder how things will be next year....

Here are some pictures from this weekends Latino Conference.  Funny, put together a whole bunch of mexicans without anything to do and we'll end up becoming good friends... Haha....  Good times....

FINALLY!

It's been a week since we've been back from spring break.  Talk about hectic! 

I left a week before spring break started; so that means that I missed a lot of school, tests, and deadlines!  Not that being away from school wasn't fun, but coming back to so much make up work and test wasn't the best feeling in the world. 

Well, to explain a little more about why I was gone... I left a week early to Kansas City, MO for the BIG XII men's and women's basketball tournament.  Too bad that both the men and the women lost on thursday so I was stuck in Kansas City for three extra days doing absolutly nothing!  Kansas City is not the place to be.  I certaintly wouldn't recommend it to anyone that is under 21.  All that there is to do there is drink and gamble at the casinos.  Although I have a lot of complaining to do about it, I will admit that there was a plus from going.  I went from hating basketball band to semi-enjoying it.  I met a whole bunch of new people and enjoyed flying in a plane for the first time in a long time.  FREAKING CRAZY!  Plus we got paid for being there doing nothing!  Talk about a waist of the university's money. 

I got back from Kansas City on Monday around 12:00pm and right as soon as I got off of the bus my dad was waiting for me to take me back home.  I finally got to go home and sleep on my own bed!  OHHHHH how I enjoyed it!  I got to also spend some time with my family, and close friends from back home. 

Thursday:  I went to a bbq with sophie, brad, ash, and jr.  The bbq was at sophie's uncle's house.  There was so much good food.  The rice and the potato salad was soooooooo good (right ash?)  YUM!  After we ate we had some cake that sophie and her mom made!  Now that was some good stuff... kind of craving it now. 

That was basically my spring break!  Now that i'm back in austin i miss my friends so much.  BLAH, but that has another story behind it. 

Another Weekend Over!

It's finally Monday.  What can I say, this freaking semester is going by so fast.  Maybe it's because I have so much to do that the days fly by.  One minute I'm brushing my teeth in the morning and the other I'm brushing them so that I can go to bed.  Shesh.... this is freaking crazy. 

The weekend was crazy.  I feel like they shouldn't even include Sunday as a day in the weekend anymore because people are stuck at home doing the homework that they didn't do all week or weekend.  Unfortunately this Sunday didn't go as I had planned.  There was this huge misunderstanding so I had one extra ticket to go see Cirque du Soliei.  I invited this guy named Barney to go with me and he was really excited to go with me (or so it seemed).  Well, I get this call on Sat. night from him letting me know that he won't be able to make it on Sunday afternoon to the show.  So basically I was dumped.  How unfair is that; AND in such short notice.  Who was I supposed to take now?  Ok to clarify things I guess I really shouldn't be upset about being "dumped" because he had a good reason.  His uncle was in the hospital so there was no way that he was about to leave the hospital and get all dressed up for a date.  Totally understandable!  But I think I'm a horrible person because I can't help but to feel upset.  Just because he has a great reason and I understand the reason doesn't mean that I'm not down or upset about the fact that he wouldn't be able to go to the show after all.  PFF... whatever... So eventually I ended finding someone that could go with me.  Gio was nice enough to be my "date" for the afternoon.  It ended up turning out great because he had really wanted to go see Cirque du Soliei but he didn't get tickets.  Fortunately for that because then he was able to go with me.  We had a great time and enjoyed a freaking awesome show.  The seats weren't as great and I would have liked them to be.  For the money that I paid for those seats I expected to have a better view.  But, oh well I can't really complain because it was a great show and I did get to enjoy it anyway. 

After the show Gio dropped me off at my place and I took a quick nap before an ESB hearing that I had to be at by 6:00pm.  As I got there the hearing was being decided about the CONNECT ticket and the decision about their punishment was being made.  I swear as I was sitting there waiting for our hearing to start there was SO MUCH freaking tention in that room.  Everyone was being rude, giving attitude, making ugly faces to each other.  There was just this ugly feeling inside of that room.  The normal people that would usually say hello to me and that I usually get along with weren't looking at me much less speaking to me.  It was just HORRIBLE!  Once everything was over, as I walked out of that room I realized that my future had just began.  I had already entered the world of politics.  That saying about "anything being fair in love and war.'  I think that it should be altared to anything is fair in love, war, and politics.  It's crazy to see how much a person is willing to do or not do in order to win an election.  HA, to think this is what I'm going to be doing the rest of my life.  ... and the fun begins! 

Changing the subject.  There are some very odd things going through my head.  It's funy to think how sometimes I just don't understand  boys/guys/ men (whatever you want to call them).  They think that girls are so unpridictable and hard to understand.  DAMN, they should really come into my head as I'm trying to analyze what the hell they are saying or doing.  How the heck do you know if a guy is intrested in you?  Honestly, I've been in situations where I believe that this guy is super intrested in me which causes me to be become intrested then in a heart beat it's like they changed their mind.  Out of no where they are no longer intrested or all of a sudden seem to forget they were intrested to begin with.  WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH THAT?  Girl either like you or they don't, it's that simple.  What is it with guys being Fucking A's and confussing the crap out of us?  I swear, guys say they like attention yet when you give it to them they walk all over you or walk away completly.  BLAH, I give up.  Boys are made to never be understood! 

This week is going to be jam packed with things that I have to get done before I leave next week.  I guess you can say that my Spring Break is going to start a week earlier than everyone elses.  The entire week of next week I'm going to be gone for March Madness with the band.  I won't be anywhere near Austin.  I know that sounds like so much fun, but to the downside to that I have to take all the exams that are going on that week a week in advance.  Basically I have every freaking paper and test due this week!  BLAH, by Friday I am going to be died and my brain will be fried from all the studying and thinking that's going to be going on.  BLAH.... totally looking forward for this week.  (If you were watching me or listening to me you'd hear the sarcasum in my voice).

Well, I should wrap this up... I need to go to the best class in the world (NOT) Anthropology.  OH YEY, so much fun.  :(